The Fall
It's my favorite season. Others say that but they only care about the aspens primping, dressing up before going out, and the new bite in the breeze. It's cool the way it blows but that's not what gets me. By now, the spiffy colors shouldn't fool us but of course, they do and that's the beauty of it. Love and death always have their reasons. they both come through and we go off and make it an event. We mark it on our calendars. I watch the summer leave the way I watch you walk away . . . I make sure I feel it in my bones. It's the only frame of reference I can trust, the only way to really read the weather. I hold a finger up and mouth my aching truth. You don't hear me call your name. It's not a time of year. It's not the equinox or the harvest moon. It's not a pumpkin on a postcard or a Sunday drive up to the mountains. It's the slow descent, the suicide, the Fall, the going out when we don't see what's coming in. It's the time of turning, remembering what we are, knowing everything will change and there is nothing more to know, and nothing we can do.
